Leesa’s Life

Archive for December 2011

Was really hoping that this year was going to be different. Since selling the business, it has been so nice and stress-free around here that I actually let myself believe for half a second that the holidays would be the same. Boy, was I wrong.

It was going fine until this afternoon. Hubby bit into my son and now it’s full on pout mode for both of them. We’re supposed to be heading to my mother in-laws’ for Christmas Eve with Hubby’s side of the family in a couple of hours. Debating on whether I even want to go at all. It’ll go one of two ways, I’m sure. 1) Hubby will pout and sulk the entire time, sitting on the couch, glaring at everybody who dares to ask him any question or wish him a Merry Christmas or 2) Hubby will act like nothing happened at all, will have a stupid ass grin on his face all evening and then when we leave pull the silent treatment on everybody. Either one will be unbearable to deal with.

I can’t believe that it is time for Christmas already. I’m so not ready for the holidays. It should still be September, not December…20 days until Christmas. Yikes!

It’s hard for me to get in the mood for the holiday blitz anymore. I’ve turned into the dreaded Scrooge. Christmas, isn’t fun, it is a chore…a dreaded chore. If I could skip it, I would.

But…I can’t. So, I dragged myself to the stores today and forced myself to look and buy gifts, gifts I don’t even care if the recipients like. I’ll keep the receipts. They can return them later if they don’t because I really don’t care. Too many times over the past few years, the holidays have turned into war zones. Last year was the whole “engagement” fiasco with my daughter. The year before it was fighting between my hubby and his brother. The year before that, a fight between hubby and his sister. I could go on, but I think you get the picture.

I think this year that I’m putting up a shield ahead of time to protect myself from more disappointment. I’m sure there will be another argument, a fight, etc but maybe if I go into the holidays with an “I don’t care” attitude then it won’t hurt as bad when things blow up? I’ll let you know if it works.