Leesa’s Life

Archive for October 2008

Enjoy these beautiful pumpkin displays and have a happy Halloween.


You Are

A Scary Pumpkin Face

You would make a good pumpkin and liver sandwich.

What Your Halloween Habits Say About You

A bit of an introvert, you like the special occasions just as much as everyone else. You just have your own unique way of celebrating Halloween.

You definitely think of yourself as someone who has a dark side. And part of having that dark side means not showing it.

Your inner child is open minded, playful, and adventurous.

You truly fear the dark side of humanity. You are a true misanthrope.

You’re logical, rational, and not easily effected. Not a lot scares you… especially when it comes to the paranormal.

You are a traditionalist with most aspects of your life. You like your Halloween costume to be basic, well made, and conventional enough to wear another year.

Ever have one of those days when no matter what you do, someone is always mad at you?  I’m having one of those days.  Bad thing is that I’ve only been up for an hour and already have three people annoyed with me.  Even worse, the fact that I didn’t really do anything to make them mad. 

Hubby is annoyed because for some reason the payment on our Amex card didn’t show up this morning.  I checked and it is being processed still, but apparantly that isn’t good enough for the hubs and it is somehow my fault that Amex didn’t do their job fast enough to please him.

Son is annoyed because he forgot to do a homework paper last night.  It’s my fault because I didn’t remind him.  Well, he’s 13 years old and perfectly capable of checking to make sure he’s done all his work, right?  But still, he had some grouchy words for his dear mom before he left for school.

And finally, one of our employees is annoyed because the truck broke down on him and he’s running behind.  How this is my fault, I’m still trying to figure out, but apparantly it is and he’s already called the office and left a few messages about it. 

Thankfully, I won’t be here much longer.  I go to my second job at 9:30 so will get some much needed peace and quiet there.  I’m really looking forward to it today.  I just hope the annoyance bug hasn’t hit Debbie (boss) too.

Ok, sorry I didn’t get on here Monday after my doctor’s appointment and update everybody on what I found out.   By the time I got home Monday evening, I was sore and tired and fighting a headache.  All I wanted to do was take a hot bath, curl up in bed and go to sleep.   I didn’t update yesterday because I was trying to get caught up on what I missed work-wise Monday afternoon.  Now I’m caught up though and ready to fill ya’ll in.

Here goes:  Basically this doctor is a godsend.  Where the first doctor told me I had no options, this doctor said I had several.  This doctor gave me hope that I will eventually feel better.  Although he basically told me to take the same wait and see approach that the first doctor told me (because over 80% of all herniated discs heal on their own), at least now i know that if my back flares up again I can get immediate relief with either a cortisone shot or physical therapy and in a severe case, surgery.  Hopefully it won’t come to that though because I am actually feeling better now.  Over the last week, the pain has subsided a lot and I feel like I’m back on the road to recovery.

My original doctor told me that with my scoliosis, he couldn’t do surgery because it was too risky and he said even a cortisone shot would be a pain to do because of my back’s anatomy and the steel rod locations.  This new doctor, however, said that a cortisone shot could be done fast and easy with minimum pain and surgery would be a cinch (his words, not mine).  He also told me that physical therapy could help if I chose that route.  His thoughts are though that i will heal on my own.  To just keep taking ibuprofen (or vicodin) for the pain, using heat or ice and doing my stretching exercises.  He also said that I should look into losing weight because that will help a lot too.  Today I’m doing some research and will more then likely take this doctor’s advice and just see how things go.  If in a couple of weeks, I’m not feeling any better or if my back flares up again (keeping the fingers crossed that it doesn’t!) then I’ll call and make an appointment for the cortisone shot.  Like i said, at least now I know I do have options….I do have hope….

Every night when I go to bed, I mark another day off my calendar.  As of this morning, there are only 5 1/2 more days until I go to see the doctor about my back.  I say 5 1/2 because my appointment isn’t until 3:30 that afternoon so I’ll be going through the majority of the day before getting any answers.

I’m really hoping that this doctor will be able to help me.  I keep telling myself not to get my hopes up, but that is hard to do whenever every movement sends shooting pain down my leg.  I just want relief.  I want to be able to walk across my living room without hurting.  I want to be able to go to bed at night and sleep comfortably.  I think that is my biggest want…I’m so tired right now it is all I can do to keep my eyes open to work throughout the day.

So, only 5 1/2 more days and counting…..

If you’ve been reading my blog these past couple of weeks, you know that my back is, yet again, bothering me.  I have either herniated another disc or the one I herniated previously is acting up again.  I don’t know which, but I do know that it is very painful, frustrating and annoying.  I’ve gone back to the sleepless nights, crying bouts, and feelings of worthlessness and I know it is only going to get worse if this problem isn’t fixed.

After much thought, I decided to call the doctor who performed my original scoliosis surgery way back when I was 13 years old.  I figured since he deals with scoliosis that he might have came across herniated discs at some point in his career and possibly have a solution to them.  I called Monday and although I didn’t get to talk to my actual doctor, I did talk to his nurse and she was very helpful.  I now have an appointment for Monday, October 20th. 

I’m anxious about it and really hope that this doctor has a solution to my problem and it isn’t another let down like the first doctor I went to see.  I am to the point that I will do anything to get rid of this pain.  I’d even stand on my head, if the doctor said it would help.  I can’t live like this.  Every morning I wake up and pray that I’m better or that I at least don’t have the pain, but it’s always there.  No matter what I do, it’s there and I just can’t handle it anymore.

Sorry for the whiney post in adavance. 

My back is still killing me.  I am so frustrated with it right now that I can’t even begin to describe it.  Pain no matter what I do.  Trying to do any computer work has been pretty much out of the question unless it is something I can do on the laptop, which for our business isn’t much.  Sleeping has been almost non-existent too.  Last night was by far the worse.  No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t find a comfortable position and every time I’d start to relax enough to fall asleep, I’d get a major spasm in my back.  I tried an ice pack, but that just made me shiver which made my back hurt even more.  I tried a heating pad, but that made the pain worse, which makes sense because the disc is probably inflamed and heat will just make it more inflamed.  I dont’ know what to do.  Doctors can’t help me because of my scoliosis unless I want to try a risky surgery that isn’t even guaranteed to work, which I don’t.   But I can’t deal with this pain day in and day out.  I just don’t know what to do.