Leesa’s Life

Archive for May 2006

I’ve been really good this week, so far. I’ve walked and ate only healthy foods. I’ve drank all my water too, but that’s been pretty easy since temps have been close to 90 degrees each day. It’s when it cools off that I just can’t seem to reach for the water. I will weigh in on Saturday morning. I’m hoping (and praying) for a good little drop on the scale. I’ll fill you in then and let you know what it shows.

Well, school is almost out for my kids. Today is their last full day. They are off tomorrow then go back Friday for a measly half an hour to pick up their report cards. I still can’t believe that the school year is over already. My daughter will be starting her SOPHOMORE year this fall and my son will be going into 6th grade, his last year of elementary school. Where has the time gone?

Oh, get this. Over the weekend, my daughter (15 years old) asked me when she could start DATING!!!! Immediately my answer was never, but then after calming down I thought about it and wondered when will I be ready to let her date? I didn’t have my first real date until I was 18 years old. Do I make her wait that long? I know when I was her age I wanted to date and felt like my parents were treating me like a baby when they wouldn’t let me. Do I make her feel the same way? That’s just a scary thought for me. She shouldn’t even be old enough to like boys. They should still have cooties, as she used to say. When she asked my hubby, he just got a dazed deer in the headlights look on his face and never did answer her. Lots of help he is. I still haven’t given her an answer. I wonder how long she’ll let me get away with that? Wouldn’t it be nice if she never brought up the subject again? Wishful thinking, I know.

Ok, I’ve had a lot of time to think about this whole diet thing and I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m worth more then a twinkie and some potato chips. I’m worth fresh fruit and veggies, lean meats and fresh sparkling water. I’m worth many years of healthy living. So, I’m back at it. I’m trying my hardest to eat healthy and move my body. I can do it. I know I can because I’m worth it!

Feelings

Posted on: May 22, 2006

I’m feeling so frustrated, annoyed and like a failure. Why? Because I weighed myself this morning and, ugh, I’m so ashamed to even type this, but I’ve gained back TWENTY of the 43 lbs. that I lost over the past year!

Why in the world did I let that happen? I knew when I stopped eating Nutrisystem that I was going to have problems, but I didn’t think I would gain back that much so fast. The part that frustrates me the most though is that even though I KNOW and SEE how much I’ve gained, I can’t stop eating the junk food. I told myself after I got off the scale this morning that I was going to eat healthier today, but the minute I went into the kitchen I reached for the junk. It’s like I’m addicted to it. And it’s not like I don’t have the healthy foods in the house. I just went to the store last week so I have plenty. But it’s like I don’t even see those things.
I don’t want to gain all the weight I’ve lost back, but if I don’t nip this in the bud soon I know that is what is going to happen. I want to get that motivation back that I had last year at this time, but even digging down deep inside I just can’t seem to find it. I’m hoping that posting on here will get some good motivational thoughts headed my way from all my friends and family. Believe me, I could use some right now.

It has been raining here for almost the past week and temps have been really cold. Yesterday it actually warmed up a bit, but then it stormed last night. It rained hard and there was plenty of thunder and lightning and even some hail. Thankfully it wasn’t big enough to cause any damage. Today it’s been sunny except for about fifteen minutes when it got totally dark and just poured down rain. There was hail mixed in with that too. Now the sun is back out and shining like crazy. What gives?

I know I’ve not posted for a week and I’m sorry about that. Between being busy and being sick (yes, sick again) it’s just been hectic here. I’ve been fighting a cold for the past two weeks now. It started as a head cold, but moved into my chest. Now it won’t go away. Every day I think I’m starting to feel better, but the next morning I’m back to coughing and not being able to breathe. It stinks! And this is the time of the month when we do the billing for our business and that’s just always hectic trying to get all the invoices ready to go out. It’s done now though so the rest of the month shouldn’t be too bad.

I hope all the mom’s had a great Mothers Day this past weekend. I know I did. The kids gave me a beautiful redbud tree for our front yard. I had wanted one for awhile so that was a nice surprise. My hubby took me out to the casino in Evansville and we spent Saturday evening there. I didn’t win big, but did come out with more $$ then I went in with so didn’t do too bad. Hubby, on the other hand, lost all the money he took with him. He just wasn’t having the best luck that night. We had a nice dinner that night too and came back home Sunday afternoon. So, all in all, I had a great Mom’s Day.

Things should be getting back to normal around here now since most holidays and special occasions are done. Well, Memorial Day is coming up but we don’t normally do much on that holiday. I’m hoping the weather warms back up soon too. It’s been in the 50’s and rainy for over a week now. I’m ready for that to stop and get back up in the 70’s where the temps belong for this time of year. The kids are counting down the days until the end of school (only 12 more as of this morning). I’m sure they’ll fly by…..for me anyway, maybe not so much for the kids. Guess that’s it. I promise I’ll do better at posting this week. “Talk” to ya all later!

Today is my birthday. I’m officially 38 years young now although I still feel, and probably act at times, like I’m 21:) My family and I celebrated yesterday by going out for a nice lunch and also buying my gift, which I love and have been wanting for years. It is pictured below…

I immediately came home and put it together, filled it with water and turned it on to enjoy. Love the sound of running water. It is just so relaxing. I was hoping that today would be halfway quiet, but no dice. The phone has been ringing off the hook all morning. I’m hoping that this afternoon though it will taper off so I can get outside and enjoy my fountain some more. I hope everyone has a great day today! Talk to you all later.

Since my birthday is Monday, I thought I’d take this quiz and post the results. Funny that it said I should be my own boss since I am already self-employed.

Your Birthdate: May 8

Watch out Donald Trump! You’ve got a head for business and money.
You’ll make it rich some day, even if you haven’t figured out how yet.
A supreme individualist, you shouldn’t get stuck in a corporate job.
Instead, make your own way – so that you can be the boss.

Your strength: Your undying determination

Your weakness: You require an opulent lifestyle

Your power color: Plum

Your power symbol: Dollar sign

Your power month: August